The Queen's Rambles

I have been reading through my journals starting with Erik’s third birthday. I sound like an insane person. What was I thinking? I had myself so worked up over things that I have zero recollection of now. Also, I should have been going back and doing proofreading because even I, the person who wrote the words, can’t follow the plot of some of the posts.

Apparently Erik was randomly peeing on things in anger around his third birthday, including his piece of birthday cake. What the hell? I have no memory of this. I wouldn’t lie about it in my journal, so it must have happened. I was also talking about hypothetical baby number 2 a lot. I didn’t think I wanted a baby when he was 3. It’s so strange how your brain can completely forget the reality of the past.

I feel a lot calmer these days. Frazzled, yes, but happier and more in tune with reality. When Erik was little I thought every little thing he did was super high stakes and a bad day meant he was going to end up being some kind of illiterate backwoods moonshine brewer. These days I know bad days happen. They are not fun to live through, but they don’t have much long term meaning.

We ended up having a really great afternoon. We met up with some friends at the park and the kids ran like crazy for two hours. Elsa didn’t have a single crying fit! My friend and I got to sit and talk about some serious issues she’s having.

I remembered to start dinner in the crockpot before we left, so there was no stress when I got home. I need more crockpot recipes that I enjoy–crockpot cooking makes life so much easier, but everything tastes the same! Mike broke my old crockpot a few months ago so I finally got a new one and I love it! My old one was HUGE. It was much, much too big for a family of four. The food didn’t come out right because there wasn’t enough in it to fill it properly. The new one is only 4 quarts and is perfect for our needs. I’ve noticed a difference in the quality of food coming out of the pot.

I guess I better go to bed. I just discovered a new show that I’m enjoying: Orphan Black on BBC America. I’ve only seen one and a half episodes but it’s very promising. I’m going to try to talk Mike into watching it with me.