The Queen's Rambles

As you know if you’ve been reading for awhile, we have a late term abortion provider doing work in our little town. My understanding is that he works in Nebraska during the week, then flies out here on the weekends when he has an abortion to perform (which is pretty rare since legally you can only get a late term abortion for some very specific reasons that are all heart breaking). But the protestors are there every morning. Some of them are perfectly acceptable to me, quietly holding up “Pray to end abortion” signs and other messages that I disagree with but that are perfectly within the realm of reasonable discourse. Then we have the nasty people who don’t care one whit about the living children in our town. They parade around with the most disgusting, graphic signs you can imagine. This is in front of a large business park with at least two pediatrician offices facing the street where these guys protest. Thankfully the business park has put up some big privacy fences, but that doesn’t help when you drive by.

So why are they having a complete fucking hissy fit about all employers covering birth control? WHY? Someone explain to me how it makes the least iota of sense. If you want to end abortion, you PROVIDE BIRTH CONTROL. How hard is that to understand? These people need to take their protest signs to the specific churches that refuse to recognize that birth control and accurate sex education ends abortion.

I mean, obviously no one can explain it to me and I don’t expect you to. I can not and will never understand it. I know it all comes down to deeply rooted hatred of women and slut shaming. I know they are so deeply lost in their own rhetoric that they can’t possibly think of logical cause and effect. It just pisses me off so hard. The Bible doesn’t say anything about birth control. The verse they use about spilling seed is about a guy who wouldn’t impregnate his dead brother’s wife.

Grrrrr. Anger. I have many, many Catholic friends. I’m not on a “hey, what birth control do you use” basis with all of them, but the ones that are willing to have the conversation say they use birth control and just repent each time. MAKES NO SENSE.

Of course, I come from a holiness evangelical background, so I was not raised with the idea of instant forgiveness. Yes, God would forgive you and forgive you absolutely, but you damn well better be sorry and if you kept doing something you weren’t really sorry. The God I grew up with did not grant forgiveness to people who asked unless they really meant it. And, of course, God would know the intent of your heart.

Thankfully the church I was a part of never demonized birth control. I just can’t wrap my head about the concept of birth control being bad.

Ok. Deep breaths. I know my words are just twisting in the wind. They won’t change anyone’s mind. But it’s my blog and sometimes I have to rant. Especially since there is a Catholic hospital being built less than two miles from my house. They will be a major employer in this area and they will be legally allowed to shit on women (their female employees who will not have birth control coverage as part of their health care plan).

How about my sister, if I’m going to rant.

I have been reading about narcissistic personality disorder and she is a clear cut case of it. Totally selfish, no empathy, makes everything about her.

For those new to the blog, she’s 35 years old, has 3 children, has type 1 diabetes that she doesn’t take care of, is married to a 45 year old guy with a bunch of children, and sponges off my mom. They are currently living with my mom. Neither she nor her husband believe in working. I guess that’s great for them since my mom is the biggest enabler on the planet. She was trained well by my grandma, who I am 100% certain also had narcissistic personality disorder.

She wants another baby, even though she can not and will not take care of the children she has (aged 7, 6 and 3). I have called CPS many times, but unless the kids are living in a meth lab or have bruises there is nothing CPS will do. My hometown is a snake pit of alcoholism and drug use.

My sister is an idiot on facebook. She constantly makes inappropriate posts and comments (I’ve removed her from my feed because I can’t stand it) and she friends anyone she might possibly know. She found a girl with her last name in our hometown and immediately friended the girl because they must be faaaaaamily. Yeah. My sister has an incredibly common last name. There are at least three people on my FB friends list with this same last name, and none of them are her family.

So this girl is 20 years old and just gave birth to her third baby. My sister says this is God’s answer to her prayers for a new baby and this baby is really her baby.

If this 20 year old girl was at all normal she’d be calling the police and reporting my sister for stalking and kidnapping. Instead, she’s handed her baby over to my sister. She gives the baby to my sister whenever my sister asks for it, which is basically 5 days a week. This baby was born with problems and has even been taken to the hospital twice after birth because it stopped breathing. Can you imagine deciding this was your baby and being responsible for it? Or letting someone take your fragile little baby away?

So my sister completely ignores her own children (typical behavior on her part) and lavishes all her attention on this baby. When my mom calls her on her behavior she has no freakin’ clue what the problem is. Narcissist. It is a good thing I am 3,000 miles away or I might do something that landed me in jail. I feel so bad for those poor children, but there is absolutely nothing I can do for them. I have offered several times to take them. I was 100% serious, but it just made my sister mad. She likes to love them for 5 minutes a day, then treat them like crap the rest of the time. She won’t even help them with their homework because they won’t cooperate with her. If there’s anyone on this earth that I pound into a bloody pulp, it’s my sister. She’s the reason I will never visit my hometown again.

My sister has two adult step-sons. One is just as slimy as she is. The other is a really good kid, or tries to be. He’s 22 or 23 I think. He lived with my mom and dad off and on through high school. He worked his ass off against horrible circumstances (my sister was the stable adult in his life, which tells you all you need to know about his mom and dad) and managed to graduate from high school. He’s held down a steady job since he graduated and has been supporting himself with no help from anyone.

So what does my dumbass sister do? Introduce him to this girl with 3 kids and try to convince him to date her or marry her. You’d think he’d be smart enough to say hell no and walk away, so this is partly on him. But instead of walking away, he becomes this girl’s booty call.

Why on earth would you ever introduce such an unstable element into the life of a young man who already has enough struggles to survive? My sister thinks it’s hilarious and that they are going to have a bunch of babies for her to raise. She’s only interested in babies until they start talking. Same with puppies. She always wants a puppy, but will never take care of a dog.

She was doing a lot better because she was in counseling, but once she met this girl and started her psycho behavior she stopped going to the counselor because he took her to task for her insane behavior.

And that, my friends, is why I’m all for mandatory sterilization. Not really, but I do wish I could give her a hysterectomy. I know I’m not a doctor, but that’s one home surgery I’d willingly perform. No anesthesia.